i love you

hey Joe.

i miss you. i love you. i miss being in your arms. being completely consumed by you. i miss the way you kissed me, i miss the feel of your lips on mine, i miss the way you touched my body, your caresses, i miss being able to fit into your frame, so perfectly. i miss the way we made love. i miss the way you held me, so close. i missed the way you smelled after a shower. i miss your scent; the perfect perfect scent.

i know you dont want me in any way. but i want you. in all the ways there are. so tell me you love me. i love you Joey...

yours

Sarah Walters

Insanely in love...

it hurts Joe. your nonchalance hurts. i am going crazy every second of every day and you! you couldn't care less. was i just a worthless piece of crap for you? you did love me once, right? because i will lose the little sanity i have left if you told me you didn't. because Joe, what i felt with you, what i experienced with you, i can never, ever in a thousand lifetimes, feel with anyone else.

and don't tell me you didn't feel the same at least once. when we were together. don't tell me those kisses didn't start a fire in you. don't tell me that you didn't feel that electricity when we touched. it was.. spiritual Joe. it wasn't just physical, or emotional. it was downright spiritual.

my body and my heart and my brain rejects the option of letting go of you. help me Joe. be mine, forever?

yours truly

Sarah Walters

missing you so darned much that it hurts like hell, Joe.

i remember how the sun made your eyes so liquid. it always took my breath away. even now. your face is my comfort memory. but as soon as the memories end i am back to reality. a reality that sucks because it doesn't have you in it joe.

i still have that bottle of your cologne that you forgot at my place. that t-shirt that you lent me. it smells like you. i still sing those songs that we sang together. i still have the wrapper of Mars that you gave me. i still have the tissue that you wiped your brow upon when you had that interview.

joe. i don't even wanna try to move on. that's how miserable i am. that's how insanely pathetic i am. i have nothing of my own. the only thing that constitutes to my existence is you. you're my reason. as long as i have that last shred of hope that i may have you one day, i shall exist. as soon as that last thread of hope breaks i dunno what shall become of me.

i cant love anyone else joe. and i know nobody can ever love a disrupted, broken empty shell that i've become. i'm damaged goods joe. only you  can make me whole again.

i love you and shall always love you.

yours truly

Sarah Walters.

Dying for you joey.

joey please say something. your silence is slowly taking my life away. please tell me you remember that kiss. tell me that you remember my face. tell me you remember the feeling. tell me you remember me, and how it felt to kiss me, to hold me. tell me you remember my love.

i love your face, i love your heart, i love your entire being. your smell, that incredibly sweet fragrance that completely renders me numb. i love you joe, with all i have, and without you i am left with nothing but an emptiness that's too much suffocating.

i'll wait for your call, or a text. anything. just like i always do. i know its never gonna come. but how do i stop my heart from yearning that it would.

yours truly

Sarah Walters.

hung on

Joey

i told you i'd answer to anything that you'd call me. i never expected you'd call me that. but anyway. if to love and die is my destiny. then that shall be it. i love you my sunshine. my sweet ecstasy. i want you to love me the way i love you. and maybe you do. maybe isn't good enough. please say it one last time. even if you don't mean it.

yours truly

sarah walters

Joey, the love of my existence.

i love you Joey. i may not have told you that enough times, or i may have. i don't know. all i know is that everyday is hard knowing that i'm fading in your life even though the fault is my own. i wish taht i can hear your voice just one last time everyday. that;s nonsense i know. i can't have all. but that never stopped me from wishing that i could.

i miss you, i love you. all i wanted was to wake up next to you. just once. so that i could savor the feeling, that i could preserve it in my memory forever to live with it. i wish you'd read this. i love you Joe.

yours truly

Sarah Walters.